Some days I wish my tears would dry.
Talking on the phone with mum yesterday, we talked about my old T. She's a beautiful Cocker Spaniel, the love of my life 💖. She'll be 14 years old on the 23rd this month, and she's blind and deaf. But she can still feel everything.
She still sleeps with me every time I go back home even though we might have been apart for so long, and even though she struggles getting in and out of bed because she doesn't see. But she still tries.
T knows when I'm about to leave and makes sure she lays on my clothes when I'm trying to pack. I know she hates goodbyes - same as me - but I always squeeze her really tight and kiss her loads because every time I come back to England I think I might never see her again - and I always do.
That's what made me cry yesterday.
I haven't felt her or she felt me since December. I still see her over skype but she can't see me anymore. Or hear me.
And that breaks my heart.💔
Mum started her packing to come over and left the suitcase in my bedroom, and because it's my suitcase in my bedroom T knows something is about to happen, so she's been sleeping in my bed, probably looking for me or waiting for me.
Never been this long without going back. And it will be long until I can again. What if she's not there anymore? What if that morning when I was rushing out of the door to go to the airport was the last time I felt her and she felt me. I truly hope she holds on. I hope she waits for me so I can hug her One. More. Time.
We shouldn't take things or people for granted. People that are there today might not be there tomorrow.
Enjoy every moment you've got with the ones you love. Don't argue. Ask yourself if that is really worth arguing about. Give them your time. It's the best present you can give to someone: Time!
Nothing in this life is more important that them.
"Give the people you love the best of yourself, not the worst. Make the commitment today to give them the time they deserve."
P.x
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