Today was Portacath insertion day!
I should be well excited about this... but all I feel is pain.
All I've been feeling this week is pain.
I feel sorry for M when he feels powerless towards my screams of pain. - Most of you don't know, but I hate taking tablets, being them painkillers or not. If I can stand the pain, I will, only take tablets when I'm completely desperate (This came after I've been diagnosed with gastritis a few years back and I think everything will upset my stomach).
My abdominal pain stopped yesterday, I still have the odd sharp pain on my right ovary if I laugh or cough but otherwise was fine. I was extremely glad about that as we had the pre-chemo meeting and the last thing I wanted was to sit there in pain. We watched a DVD full of information about the team and how the unit works, and the most common side effects - that don't happen at the same time to everyone nor all of them happen - I already knew most of them from my research and revived my memory when I was in nursing school, but was very good for M - well good for information but bad to make him worry even more.
We got loads of information about support groups that we can meet around our age group - I'd like that, I know I have so many people around me and they're all superstars but I'd like to have people that are going through the same too.
We got loads of information about support groups that we can meet around our age group - I'd like that, I know I have so many people around me and they're all superstars but I'd like to have people that are going through the same too.
Today we woke up early - M barely slept with the worrying, and I had a sleep full of horrible tiring dreams. - Hospital was awaiting us.
I've asked for this, I'm starting to have a special hate for cannulas and needles going in my skin for the last month, so having a portacath was my choice. - Just didn't freaking know it would hurt so much!!!
I've asked for this, I'm starting to have a special hate for cannulas and needles going in my skin for the last month, so having a portacath was my choice. - Just didn't freaking know it would hurt so much!!!
Portacath's are a medical device that stays under your skin and allows medication to go in the vein and bloods be taken out. So people don't need to keep finding my veins anymore. A small needle pierces the rubber center and is a direct connection to the big veins in the body.
Dr Richard Leech was amazing! 5 stars 🌟 for him! But instead of the normal approach he had to use the jugular and go under my neck muscle and over my colarbone. So I can now tell you that, even swallowing my own saliva, hurts!
Pain score? About 9/10 when I move...6/10 when I'm resting.
Just trying to focus that in a few days time this pain will be gone and no more cannulas or needles for me! Yay!
Just trying to focus that in a few days time this pain will be gone and no more cannulas or needles for me! Yay!
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