Not sure how I should describe today.
It was a mixed feelings day. Behind us there was 4 days of "rest" that turned into million questions and worries, and ahead there's days full of doctors and phone calls and appointments and so many things to deal with. The expectation is high.
This week I'll have my genetics test done and my fertility appointment too. Still waiting to be contacted to do a CT scan and Bone scan to then determine the stage of the cancer. I'm hopeful that it can all be done this week and specially our fertility appointment goes as I'm expecting it to be - fingers (and everything else) crossed- and it doesn't delay - too much - the start of my chemo.
I've been speaking to a couple of people that have been through the breast cancer journey, but different experiences. although made me think a bit more positive about what I'm going to go through.
Ps. I'm still struggling about my hair, I know it might be a silly worry in the scale of things - M and me know now we will have different worries throughout the whole process (sometimes a good talk with friends help you see the other side of things), but mine is the hair.
I can deal with feeling/being sick, I can deal with tiredness, I can deal with sleepiness and feeling like shit but not sure how I'm gonna feel about my bold head for about 6 months. I know it will grow and people say it grows better and quick but it's My Hair. I'll get over it...I know I will, just give me a bit of time. I think I have decided what to do but not entirely sure yet, I'll let you know soon!
P.x
It was a mixed feelings day. Behind us there was 4 days of "rest" that turned into million questions and worries, and ahead there's days full of doctors and phone calls and appointments and so many things to deal with. The expectation is high.
This week I'll have my genetics test done and my fertility appointment too. Still waiting to be contacted to do a CT scan and Bone scan to then determine the stage of the cancer. I'm hopeful that it can all be done this week and specially our fertility appointment goes as I'm expecting it to be - fingers (and everything else) crossed- and it doesn't delay - too much - the start of my chemo.
I've been speaking to a couple of people that have been through the breast cancer journey, but different experiences. although made me think a bit more positive about what I'm going to go through.
Ps. I'm still struggling about my hair, I know it might be a silly worry in the scale of things - M and me know now we will have different worries throughout the whole process (sometimes a good talk with friends help you see the other side of things), but mine is the hair.
I can deal with feeling/being sick, I can deal with tiredness, I can deal with sleepiness and feeling like shit but not sure how I'm gonna feel about my bold head for about 6 months. I know it will grow and people say it grows better and quick but it's My Hair. I'll get over it...I know I will, just give me a bit of time. I think I have decided what to do but not entirely sure yet, I'll let you know soon!
"Your current situation is not your final destination"
P.x
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